what’s happened makes me believe, people do not care as much as the say they do. I mean most people truly do not give a shit. Manipulation becomes “love”, when we do or say things we know will bring certain results.
as I read all these old stupid things I wrote that are hidden somewhere between every 10 photos or reposts, I realized so much of what has happened has affected me and has formed some of my not so great ways that I currently use to carry out my words and feelings. I realized yeah I’ve been hurt, but I was also young, and very naive and very inexperienced. Life throws you challenges, and although I’ve been through them, I don’t think I’ve completely coped. I’ve assumed all people have the same abilities as others, and I’ve treated people ways that they don’t really deserve. I’m going to appreciate what I have, and acknowledge how lucky I am to be in the position I am today. I am going to be attending culinary school in august, I have a boyfriend of a year and six months that does truly love me, and I really do have things coming my way. Maybe they haven’t have been put in place, and I certainly do have stress in my life-But I do not have the worst life ever, and I’m lucky for that. Things will all fall into place, and I need to trust that.
um i haven’t been on here in oh maybe a year, tumblr fast I guess. But I’m going through all my post, and doing a cleanse maybe, either deleting somethings, or deleting everything. I want to leave the past behind me and let everything go. So I guess we’ll see what happens….